God bless you for those words, and to answer your questions...

I sort of go to a church, but it's more like a youth group. You see,
I never really have been set in any one church, especially not since
my seperation with my parents a little more than three years ago.
Things are fine between them, it's not like it was done out of hate
(praise God), but going between Gig Harbor and University Place, I've
never really settled down to one church. The group I'm currently with
is a great youth group, but I've always seemed to be stuck with
groups where I'm more like the kid who is chosen last on the baseball
field, not really PART of it.

Add that to the fact that I have medical problems, have not graduated
HS, am still living with my parents, have been unemployed since the
age of 16 & can't drive despite being 18, just to name a few of my
flaws. I know I'm perfect in God's eye, and I know of His love and
wonders...there was even a time where He was my best friend. But it
seemed that reality hit me, it was time for me to step up as a man,
and my child-like faith with God slipped away like grains of sand
through my fingers.

When it even comes down to love, I know what I want, but I cannot see
those qualities that I seek in a true companion. It's not really a
big deal, I mean, it's not like I don't have ANY friends, but it
would be nice to meet a woman who could set a standard for me as a
Christian and be a little more than a friend. No matter what, though,
God has a reason for everything, and it will all be in His time.
Although others tell me that I can't depend on that to determine my
fate in life.

So many things are going on emotionally, mentally, spiritually, it's
hard to keep track at times. If you have any more questions, feel
free to ask me..... stepsup1@...

Make sure that you mention in the letter that you found my addy in
this group so I don't freak out or anything. God Bless you all, and
thank you for your concerns....


Derek