So good to find you here! I am learning to follow the primitive instincts given me as I climb one more time out of the depth of my pain! I have just begun to find people like your self who share in a belief I thought only was in my head! I follow a voice deep inside who I understand as Jesus, but the Jesus who walked and talked, not organized religion! I look to over come physical pain and continue to open my spirit to the life force of love! I need to learn how the power, the energies, effect my body and use it to help myself get beyond this plain! I have come to understand the Law of attraction and see thing manifest every day in my life. I just recently came off pain narcotics and when I did my body mind and spirit came alive again more so then ever before! I have always been a spiritual being but now it is very animated in me! I want to understand more of what is happening to me from this point of understanding! I am open to all understanding and seek to understand the oldest of old ways of healing! I am calling it "Back To Eden" The spirit is leading and I follow, I am but a Vessel That Caries The Spirit Of Love!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
JESUS Leads Me Through Rcovery With ORMUS
I am like the ormus element, you cant contain me! It has always been difficult for me to be still. My mind wanders continually some times even in my sleep, although it has been difficult with the content of my dreams in the last decade. Struggle and some times numbness to take the pain away from all that I saw! The tears the sorrow and lost sense of hope. The world needs hope it needs a real miracle!
Last night I was in my own space not thinking about the ormus but about the people in my life. I had already written this first two pages of this piece and had had a spiritual experience of connecting with my loved ones who had passed on. My brother who dies on the mountain came to me and I could feel him there touching me as if to hug me and I cried, as I cried, my father's spirit came and held me and told me how much he loved me and was proud of me and that I must continue forward with what it is I must do and to trust the spirit to guide me. The next moment I was in the presents of my mother! I have had many dreams of being again with my mother, My mother suffered greatly in this world but she never stopped loving! She did how ever like to gamble a bit and play games! Nothing addictive, she just liked the challenge of it, to use her mind as she could not use her body as well! Me they couldn't get me to sit still to play a game, I was always off in my mind even as a young person. Someone was always pulling me back yelling "Joni, it's your turn!" I still find it difficult to play games as I have been to busy creating the game in my mind!
When I was a child I loved pretending to be a horse! Even to the point of giving my siblings rides on my back running around the yard being a horse! At that moment, I was a horse! I believe we can have the wisdom to see our way through the passages of our mind if we can get to the point were we can see the different doors! And to chose from those doors which one you want to go through. Just pick one! I have walked through many doors in my mind. I have tried on others shoes. I have died along with the peoples who's hand I held as they crossed over! I have seen the energy light go out from the eyes as the spirit left the body! I have felt your pain for I have watched you from with in your heart as you struggle to find your way home to me! The voice of God is in me the truth of love is the power greater then all else! loves energy is what drives the universe!
The mono-atomic elements like the wind swirl and turn and fly and move around and through every thing. The flow of that current is flowing through our bodies as we our selves move about causing more energy to flow. That energy has increased the energy in me and I am feeling the love of a thousand generations reaching out to me ready to lend a guiding spirit! Love is like the key to drive the car you are in. The car is fueled with positive energy and negative energy! The spirit energy we carry around in this car or body is mixed with positive and negative energies. As pressure of indecision between love and hate or anger, negative energy builds and pushes in on your heart or love; for what ever that reason is, causing friction it causes movement in the mind the heart and the soul, that energy some times bursts into rage some time forgiveness! You are the creator of that universe! This is the movement, just like what I said about pain moving us. The idea is to find the balance so that we can glide and be carried smoothly across the plain of this wilderness we are traveling through! The game is to follow the yellow brick road to the streets paved with silver and gold where awaits you a gift so rare that even as you lay next to the one you love they may not eat of this truth,( manna) as you do and will be lost to suffer more in this life of seek and find, knock and the doors might open.
With ORMUS the connection to this spirit is stronger, it is so strong that it is difficult for me to want to stop and write this as I just want to be out there with the energy flowing, flying freely and abundantly! I sought and found ORMUS, I knocked and the door opened, I was freely given the manna of life and I am now being made whole! By the whole of ORMUS not of just my own understanding but through the spirit who is in all of you reading this and beyond I find that strength to move accordingly as the spirit guides me. The spirit of love I have found so strong here I feel as if I have come home! Namaste to you all! And thank you!
One thing the door opened to was the feelings in my body! The feelings of orgasm! I feel that people who are connecting to spiritual orgasm with elation with or with out ejaculation are feeling the bodies sensation to pleasure, even from just a thought! Not unlike the biological effects the body has when yawning or taking in large amounts of oxygen . The response to pleasure is to; take in a lot of oxygen, this stimulates the brain and connect to that space in time, were past memory lead you Back to the origin of time, called 'God' to most, and taps into the power of the universe which returns a massive surge of energy coming back to you that not unlike being shocked by electricity the body acts in a similar way by contracting at the same time you feel the warm energy of love, creation, power,
And any thing else good your mind can see! I have always lived in my mind! Sense the ORMUS my body has experienced so many feeling of elation, as well as multiple orgasms just by think of something or of someone! This is all healing to my body. I used orgasms to get though my withdrawal from the narcotics. After a hot shower to relax the tensions then walk off into the theater of my mind, and gained multiple orgasms, and I was able to finally rest! I look forward to feeling my way through this energy source or sources! I feel with every thought and every feeling I move closer to that source which holds me in its loving arms when I cry and keeps me safe from harm as I move through this life; anticipating wonders! The ORMUS I feel has tuned me into that power at a greater magnitude then I have ever imagined! Here is something I wrote the other night when I was going through a connection of elation, I jut now found it and didn't even remember it at first reading it, then it all came to me. I also have included a quote from something I read.
I Am A Vessel That Carries The Spirit Of Love
I am a vessel that carries the spirit of love, always longing to rise up to be with him the one who sent me, feeling his love flow down upon me like a soft gentle breeze swirling around me touching me oh so intimately! I feel my mind leave this place for that time and climb with him to the peaks of eternity! Oh so briefly I am transformed to energy of oneness! Like an orgasm between to lovers! I long to live there! I see his messages every where, in my mind, in nature, in music and word, and in you! A life of love sees much pain and tears, the heart of compassion wants to kiss those tears away! Can I kiss your tears away? Let me love you just as you are with all your self both light and dark. I will stand with you in the dark and light your way! Love me for I love you! Compassion gives to those in need and truly wishes to take that pain away, even if for a brief moment! I need you and you need me, there are so many lonely people who are waiting to have some one give a hug, a smile, a listening ear and an open heart! I am a vessel of the spirit of love!
"All Yoga is a turning of the human mind and the human soul, not yet divine in realization, but feeling the divine impulse and attraction in it, towards that by which it finds its greater being. Emotionally, the first form which this turning takes must be that of adoration. In ordinary religion this adoration wears the form of external worship and that again develops a most external form of ceremonial worship. This element is ordinarily necessary because the mass of men live in their physical minds, cannot realize anything except by the force of a physical symbol and cannot feel that they are living anything except by the force of a physical action. We might apply here the Tantric gradation of sadhana, which makes the way of the pasu, the herd, the animal or physical being, the lowest stage of its discipline, and say that the purely or predominantly ceremonial adoration is the first step of this lowest part of the way. It is evident that even real religion,--and Yoga is something more than religion,--only begins when this quite outward worship corresponds to something really felt within the mind, some genuine submission, awe or spiritual aspiration, to which it becomes an aid, an outward expression and also a sort of periodical or constant reminder helping to draw back the mind to it from the preoccupations of ordinary life. But so long as it is only an idea of the Godhead to which one renders reverence or homage, we have not yet got to the beginning of Yoga. The aim of Yoga being union, its beginning must always be a seeking after the Divine, a longing after some kind of touch, closeness or possession. When this comes on us, the adoration becomes always primarily an inner worship; we begin to make ourselves a temple of the Divine, our thoughts and feelings a constant prayer of aspiration and seeking, our whole life an external service and worship. It is as this change, this new soul-tendency grows, that the religion of the devotee becomes a Yoga, a growing contact and union. It does not follow that the outward worship will necessarily be dispensed with, but it will increasingly become only a physical expression or outflowing of the inner devotion and adoration, the wave of the soul throwing itself out in speech and symbolic act."
From: Sri Aurobindo
in SABCL, volume 21, pages 521-579
published by Sri Aurobindo Ashram - Pondicherry
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